Metamorphosis? Menopause?

Metamorphosis is a biological process by which an animal physically develops after birth or hatching, involving a conspicuous and relatively abrupt change in the animal's body structure through cell growth and differentiation.

Menopause is a term used to describe the permanent cessation of the primary functions of the human ovaries. The transition from reproductive to non-reproductive is the result of a major reduction in female hormonal production by the ovaries.

Today reading these definitions got to the origin of this blog! Both are abrupt changes!! Haha! Yes all the sudden life changes!! My Meno-path started 10 yrs ago when I had to receive a total hysterectomy (is the surgical removal of the uterus and cervix y todas las madres)! I celebrate it because it was near the 9/11 tragedy. Well life really changed for me! All the sudden no more menstruations for me, and that is definitely good! But oh the awesomeness of mood changes! That kind of hit me ! 

All the sudden I found myself thinking "Evelyn Gabriel what the are you doing here in this abusive and hurtful relationship?"  That was a big question in that moment of my life. I had suffered through various moments of infidelity and I thought that forgiveness and restoration where for me but found out that it is not always possible and I am for it but it has to be both persons in the relationship that have to be willing to fight and work for the relation to heal and keep on getting better, it is not a one person mission. I had to fight with the Lord that would keep on talking to  me saying " You know what you have to do, I am with you." It was not till we had to pass through a hurtful experience one night with my children that I finally decided to end all the hurting and lying that I had been exposing myself and my children! The devil is a liar and a deceptive cheater and we let him in our lives because we think life ends if we divorce and it is not true! Although I know my children have been hurt by our ending a family I have become stronger and I know my children are more sane and safe as if before.  

Changes hurt, cheating hurts, menopause hurts, metamorphosis hurts more! But definitely all  come to an end.  The hurting will not last forever! Praise God for that!! All come to a halt! Changes are good and the Lord always wants the best for us! I don't wish for that to happen to you my friend it really hurts more if that person was your best friend but that also comes to an end just been working on it more than I thought lately, cause it hurts but God is so good he sent me an awesome man of God (that would have to be another blog) and got married to my best friend! so God has better and greater plans! Plans to prosper you! Plans for the best!

Menopause and metamorphosis are abrupt changes but can be the best time of your life if you let yourself fall into the arms of the almighty Lord!! I am having fun and loving these changes!! Let the Lord guide you and follow him to where He wants to take you, you will have fun!! What is the worst thing that could happen in the hands of the Lord?

Blessed

"Dieting anyone?"

"Dieting is the practice of eating food in a regulated fashion to achieve or maintain a controlled weight. In most cases dieting is used in combination with physical exercise to lose weight in those who are overweight or obese. Some athletes, however, follow a diet to gain weight (usually in the form of muscle). Diets can also be used to maintain a stable body weight."

I wake every morning to go the gym and start my daily exercises and mainly take 2.5 hours of workout and lately been trying my best to eat more healthy, so all the sudden I look at my weight and it is the same!! Haven't lost not even one ounce! Du got me frustrated! All the sudden I am looking around for some diet and reading and learning more about healthier eating and started eating more organic and natural food no red meat, no butter, no eggs only egg whites, no bread only natural potato bread even drank potato milk and guess what?...no shredded pounds! It is kind of hard sometimes getting to my age (52), menopausal, little crazy and to top that no weight loss!

Well had to go to my Doctors appointment and took some blood test he had ordered for me.  That morning did my spinning class, 45 min of hard labor! Got to the Dr. office and sat down, he took my BP and had it really high! OMG! But Dr. I took my pills I am doing exercises, I do spinning, zumba, weight training, eating light, no salt! So he looked at me "Why are you not losing weight?" ha what a question and immediately I started crying he got desperate please don't cry or I will cry also! It was such a funny moment for me and emotional at the same time. You get to a point in life that it is nearly impossible for you as a women to lose at least 5 miserable pounds and my Dr. is asking me why I do not lose weight! He looked up my blood test results and it so happens that my thyroid gland is just like me, crazy! It is not working how it should be so kind of got a crazy body. Gave me some ideas and diet tips to follow, changed medications so I am starting to lose my weight and feel better! Dieting is not an easy task when you have the combination of many years with bad habits and when all develops around food, but your suppose to make it.

When we spend time with God in a regimen of reading the Bible, praying and fasting and all the sudden you feel you are not getting any where you feel like the diet plan! Eating healthier and not losing a pound! When I went to my Dr. I felt as when you go and look up all your diet plan, reading the Bible, check, praying, check, fasting, check! and results, not seen yet! And why is there no answers! Well sometime all we need is to change our strategy and start a new regimen in our journey with the Lord! Got to see in what area we have to cut down and what area we have to exercise more! The Lord is always at the same place waiting for us but we complicate our own journey or sometimes our angel who is bringing us our answer had to make a stop to fight for us. God always answers our prayers, sometimes got to wait, sometimes it is yes, others is no but it gets there just got to learn to wait. Sometimes we want to lose 10 pounds in one week but if you to take it one step at a time a healthy way is to lose 2-3 pounds a week and we will get those 10 pounds off forever in a more healthier way!

Yep prayer is part of our special diet to get to be that women or men of God we always aspire to become! At least I do! I know it is hard for me but I sure am trying! Dieting not easy when you love food! Praying not easy when you are tired and want to sleep or do not find time but makes the diet more easy to follow!

Well one thing I know! Prayer changes everything!  Dieting changes my life! Maybe I'll lose some pounds or my mind but I'll keep on trying!

Love you all! Remember the Lord always has the most greatest plans for you! Plans for your good health and awesome life!

Blessings!

"Rut"

1. A sunken track or groove made by the passage of vehicles.

2. A fixed, usually boring routine.

 

Been feeling lately that I am in a deep sunken rut. What a bad feeling, all the sudden didn't even have the slightest idea or feeling to write down something on my blog. Well since the purpose of a blog is to write down your feelings, a form of expression, it is sometimes defined as an on-line diary, mine would be A Dairy of a Menopausal Women! (Diary of a Wimpy Kid) Well finally got to start writing again!

 

Ha it is so funny because it is 4:00 AM and had to pass through a moment of how can I call it, a middle age crisis. It is one of those moments you know you are in that age group......I have to eat dinner early being that at 4:00 PM so last night ate at 6:30 PM and truly enough woke up! du So I decided well I am here awake no interruptions might as well use my time positively!

Been reading lately lots of books on prayer and Spiritual Warfare to get inspired and to learn more on those themes that I do love and even through all that enrichment  still been feeling in a rut  like I do not know what to say to God! I know that people will say Oh it is that He is working on it, or it will come, the answer is on it's way, etc.  I have learned that all that is an excuse, even sounds lame when you are feeling down and not receiving some answers so her I am writing down my little problem that has me down so  I know  that some way the Lord is speaking to me right now, He is using this moment of frustration to tell me I am in Control! So might as well call this a Menopausal Momentum! An Aw moment! Those moments that you recieve ilumination from  up above!

 

God is in control of our every day situations and although I would love to hear His voice like others say or feel Him telling  me what to do, He is in control! I do not have dreams where He speaks or shows me something, He is in control! He carries me!....Yes He has me in his arms with all my frustrations and my ruts! 

 

Do not let the ruts and frustrations  get you down for too much time! Give the Lord your life, your frustrations, your rut and He will deliver! God will give you the victory and the promises He made to you and me!

 

Thank you Lord for this moment and I pray and present  to you all my blogger friends! I declare blessings and the favor of the Lord over there lives in Jesus name! Amen!!