"A lesson from Dexter the TV drama"

"Dexter is an American television drama series that centers on Dexter Morgan (Michael C. Hall), a forensic bloodstain pattern analyst for the Miami Metro Police who moonlights as a serial killer. He is a true psychopath who enjoys killing he was taught by his adoptive dad a way to channel his violent urges towards people who "deserve it". Dexter's victims must be killers themselves who have murdered the undeserving and will likely do so again."


Well I am a fan of Dexter, never thought I would be but just got hooked on it. Started hooked last year and this year even got in touch with my other FB childhood friend that would send me a  resume of the episode till my cousin told me a link to watch it the next day.  My husband bout me the 1st season and he also got hooked.


Well to the point, this season was very tense and interesting he became attached to Lumen a women who he saved from being killed but had various issues of her own. You see she was raped and being held prisoner to be killed by her rapists.  Truly a very hard situation, I do not know how a raped person would feel but it I went to a conference that the speaker referred to it as  "Asesinato del alma" "Murder of the soul" and that stuck.  I imagine the pain and the terror and all the stages that person goes through.  Lumen was very overwhelmed and destroyed when Dexter finds her.  He teaches her how to kill and together they hunt down each one of the men that were involved in her rape and kill them! By the way she really needed counseling an intervention but that is not the point.


The true moment after all that Lumen and Dexter been through came when they finally had the author and the bully of the group of rapist.  There they were he finally was rapped up ready for the "killing", I always close my eyes and in that precise moment when Lumen (the rape victim) takes the knife and kills her rapist, the final one I looked and ugh it was so fast but something came to my attention, Lumen's face! Her gesture, her relief sigh..I cried and still do in that part and the following minutes.  She had done something she needed to do kill that person that made her suffer so much! Believe me I am not seeing it in that literal way, that person was eliminated from her life! No more pain! In that moment she was free!


I saw it in the spiritual rem when we finally get too that point, that moment when we let go and it doesn't hurt no more, that is the way I saw it! She had her breakthrough!! She was ready to go back home and be the person she was destined to be: a stronger women!


How many of us in this moment haven't let go and still holding on to those things that hurt, that makes our lives miserable and does not let us get our Breakthrough!! Lumen didn't go through the proper channels she had help from a psychopath, but you can receive help from the best, you can receive help from the Lord! and yes I truly encourage help from a professionally trained  Counselor, Therapist, Pastor or any other medical expert.  We need our breakthrough to get to the other level in our lives! We need inner healing of our souls!


Fight for your Breakthrough! Don't be slave of that person, persons that made you suffer! Don't hang in to your past! Let it go! Don't be miserable! My God love yourself! Kill that in your heart! in your mind! "Sueltalo!!" "Dejalo ir!!" "Entregalo a Dios!" y el hara!"" Let it go! Release it!! Give it to God now!! He will do it! He will give you peace, joy and your freedom!


Always remember: God wants the best for you and for me! Receive the peace of God! I declare  spiritual and physical healing in Jesus name! (Isaiah 53.5) Amen!


Love you and ya I'll keep on watching Dex who knows what other lesson he'll give me!...


Receive the blessing of the Lord!

"Writer's blah"

"Writer's Block is a condition, associated with writing as a profession, in which an author loses the ability to produce new work."


I haven't been creative this past month kind of got into that "blah" moment. Last month was a very intense month for me had too many negative emotions and obstacles to deal with that truly minded my creativity.  I just had to look for the moment that it became more manageable and really felt like writing again. 


Well finally felt like expressing myself! Uuf man it is a little difficult but necessary for me at this moment! You see "blah" moments come from stress, depression  or boredom.


What I have learned is that stress leads to depression and leads to boredom all at once.  There are moments that you want to get inside of a person and change them and do things the right way so definitely that leads to "stress". As a mom I forget that I can"t do that, I can not get into my kids mind and change there attitude! Not even God does that to us. God lets you and me decide if you want to be miserable or not! He gave us free will so either I can be miserable or not!  Cool ha! I thank God for a special friend that I have been in touch through Facebook these days that helped me out in my situation dealing with my kids situation.  She gave me truly  good word of wisdom.  So funny I know her since very young, I used to fight alot with her and now she is my counselor.  And then came other stressful moment for me to see people that just leave and take for granted the calling of the Lord in there lives and simply think they are doing right and don't even take a moment to think  that their decision is not effecting others so unreal moment for me! ! So definitely I got a littles stressed, depressed and bored!   


So funny I just had to deal with those moments and keep on but I let it make me have a "blah" moment!  I wonder has God ever have a "blah" moment in our lives? You know what? I think He has!!! I think He 's gotten bored on hearing the same coming out of our mouths! O Lord this situation! but we do not let Him do His job! Really if I were God I would get bored! Thank God I am not God!! Haha!


All I had to do is let go! Not easy when your children are involved but hey our parents let us go! But noooo we love to keep hanging on to them! Let her go! 


The other situation well it's time I finally learn to handle is never put your vision and trust in man.  Men offer lots of different alternatives that sometime sound just great and ideal but truly are not! So I decided to go back to basics! God is in control no matter what men can offer and declare that is making the difference.  The Lord opened a door for me and I just decided I am going ahead and move forward! and you know what? Feels good!! I decided to take the leap and not question the Lord no more!


"Blah" moments will come and go! It all depends on you and me if it is going to be for a wile or for long it's  in your hands. You  will be miserable or you will be great! It's up to you! 


Remember: 
The Lord has great plans for our lives! Plans of welfare and not calamity! Plans to prosper you not to harm you! Plans for good and not for disaster! Thoughts of peace and not of evil! Plans to give you a hope and a future!


Blessed be the name of the Lord!!  Love ya'all

Afterthoughts

"Reflection after an act"

Finally could make it! Here I am try to bring my thoughts after an experience a couple weeks ago!

I was assigned the task of preparing a one day Woman's Retreat at the church where I go with my husband Mario. Not an easy one but I finally got to the making of the retreat.  Even was one of the speakers! That was quiet an experience for me! First time in charge and first time as a speaker! Cool!

Definitely it is a life changing experience when you are the one organizing and speaking in an event it was simple but you always want to give your best, (at least I do) specially if it's to reach out to woman in behalf of the Lord.

God gave me words of wisdom and I was able to deliver my best.   Now I can say that all the hard work and sweat and tears were worth it just as different women came to me and told "me that word was for me" "I passed through that same situation" those words make you feel that truly God is in control and knows the needs.

When you see the finished work of your labor definitely feels so good! I just can't stop imagining how is God looking at His work in progress! This retreat passed and I felt it was a victory even though not all the women that were invited assisted.  I felt like the Lord does when only one person comes back and thanks Him for what He has done for him.  Joyful!

I thank God for what He has been doing with me and all that I have been going through! He has big plans for me and promises to be with me in every step of the way!


Always remember that the Lord has plans for the best for you and for me! Your pain will go and your life will change and if your trust in the Lord your change will be for the best! Better things will come and after they come you will sit down and look back and say "It was worth it!" Your afterthoughts will bring a smile to your face and an ahh moment to your life!


Be blessed dear friend and expect the best form the Lord always! Gozas del Favor de Dios!!

Love ya'all!!

Thank you Mario for your unconditional love and support! Blessed!

Gasoline to the soul

Today the prayer group from the gym had a reunion at one of the girls house it was an awesome experience.  We do gym workout together and once a month have a prayer meeting, here word from God, pray, eat and have fun.  Mostly eat and then the rest.

Today we had to prepare a little bag with some cards and candy to a secret friend. I received a special card from one of the girls, it read like this" Dios tiene un propósito para todo...Busca siempre de El. Me río mucho contigo. El te ama. Los que te conocen también. Eres super sigue igual. Dios te bendice"

"God always has a purpose for everything...always look for His presence.  You make me laugh a lot. god loves you and so do the people who know you.  You are super never change. God bless you. Magda"  These  words made my day! God used her as an instrument and made me know that He is by me and loves me just as I am!

Yes I truly needed this like gasoline to my soul! So all you beautiful friends remember: God loves you just as you are! Don't change! Keep up the good work He is doing on you!

God always has good words for us that serve as a catalyst and gasoline to our soul!

Be blessed!

For I know the thoughts and plans that I have for you, says the Lord, thoughts and plans for welfare and peace and not for evil, to give you hope in your final outcome.  Jeremiah 29:11 (New Living Translation)

"Rhythm"

Rhythm-"any regular recurring motion, symmetry" "timed movement through space."


This week while doing my spinning exercises the instructor shouted that he wanted us on a rhythm and follow it so we could get to a better peak in the class. I tried to keep up with the music he puts but truly not always I can make it! I was there in the class thinking "man God does that with our lives!".


God has a rhythm so special of Him. He gives us promises and takes His time to answer and we have another pace, we want things fast, now!..well at least I am that way! I know I am desperate when it comes to waiting on the Lord!  but on the other hand He gives us a promise and delivers it so fast we don't have even time to notice it coming it just starts and keeps on! Wow that we truly love! His ways are mysterious to us but are the best for us at the end! It brings out the best in our lives!


El ritmo de Dios muchas veces no es el ritmo de nosotras!


Spinning class is sometimes so hard and you feel so tired and you sweat alot but at the end you have great results for you! Up, down, fast, slow but at the end you have obtained weight loss and better health.


The same with God! Up one day, down another, slowww in receiving, fast answers, hard, sweaty, tearful, but in the end the results are a completely transformed Women of God!


Habakkuk 2.3 (The Message)...If it seems slow in coming, wait. It's on its way. It will come right on time.


Isaiah 40.31 (New King James) But those who wait on the LORD Shall renew their strength; They shall mount up with wings like eagles,They shall run and not be weary, hey shall walk and not faint.


Wait on the Lord! Let Him guide you and follow His rhythm! You will see great results in your life!!


Be Blessed Beautiful Women of God!

"Plans"

Plans: A plan is typically any procedure used to achieve an objective. It is a set of intended actions, through which one expects to achieve a goal.

God always has plans for our lives! We always make plans for our lives! Our kids make plans for theirs! So true they make there own plans. My son Carlos Ivan is not getting married as planed so he decided to come back to Puerto Rico because God changed his plans. Well that really is good or not? The truth is it’s his life and although I had plans for him he has to make his own plans and his own mistakes.  Tough ha but so true and as mothers we forget that.

Last week a lady in the gym was celebrating her 50^th wedding anniversary! She came up to me and expressed how happy she was to be married so many years to the same man!, I felt bad yes that is the true I told her “well I had planned to be a lifetime with my first husband!” Yep that was my plan so true. I had planned to live happily ever after! Yes that was my plan and I thought God’s plan for me.

Well my then husband father of my 2 children did not have the same game plan! He forgot that marriage is with one person and decided to be with other women and did not respect me or the institution known as marriage!  He tolled me that he didn’t love me and was in love with my friend and leader of the church so they decided to commit adultery right in the same church her husband and children and my family were members.  It was a big ordeal for me and very painful situation.  I always forgave him because I thought it was what the Lord wanted.  Guess what no way! That is not what the Lord wants! The Lord has better plans for you and me! When I finally got that in my mind and in my spirit I decided to change plans and do better for myself I got out of that bad situation and the Lord changed completely my plans!

The Lord loves me so that he sent a good man into my life and my kids’ life that respects me and loves me just as I am!  I even forgot how many years I was in that bad situation because the Lord changed it all! I did go through other bad moments but the Lord has been with me all the way!

This is the first time I write something about it and I feel better and whole. The plans of the Lord are always for the best! Ladies we do not have to live in a life threatening situation and no one has the right to disrespect us and treat us as trash! You are a treasure! You are a Princess of God! 

Soy Una Princesa Guerrera de Dios!

Be blessed! God has great plans for you!!

Depression?

"Depression may be described as feeling sad, blue, unhappy, miserable, or down in the dumps. Most of us feel this way at one time or another for short periods.

Clinical depression is a mood disorder in which feelings of sadness, loss, anger, or frustration interfere with everyday life for an extended period of time." 

I was feeling depressed for a couple days my sadness didn't want to go away or maybe I didn't want it to leave me, who knows? All the sudden after a day at the gym I felt like going to the stylist and getting my hair cut! (guess I truly needed that movement) and to my surprise it was empty I was the only client so on I went to my hair cut all the sudden this short sassy lady came in with her quiet husband and told the girl she wanted a makeover for her husband (really needed one) and of he went with one of the males stylist all the sudden during my haircut this lady was by my side taking.  She had something particular it was her hat well the fact is she took it off and had no hair nor had eyebrows so truly yes she was a cancer patient.  She is on quimo at that moment. Well she was so happy taking about her experience and how she saw so waiting for her hair to grow and was so dynamic and yes here I am in my depression mode and here she was in her happy mode so yep I cried in front of her I said "OMG I am in my depression and you are so happy going threw a bad stage of your life"!!  Definitely an "Ahh" moment! She told me don't cry you look fabulous all is ok for me!  Well enough to say that when I finished had to give her a big hug and bless her! And yep truly my depression just went away!! 

The Lord wants us to be happy, always! Rejoice in the Lord always! Phil 4.4 "Praise the Lord, all you Gentiles, and sing praises to him, all you peoples." Rom 15.11. It took an encounter with a happy small bald woman to make me shake up from my depression mode!

Isn’t the Lord something! He takes us to places and situations for us to really take the proper steps that we needed!

Much Love to you all! Be happy in everything you do! No to depression!!

God's Promises!!

Last week my son Carlos Ivan came from Dallas, TX for a couple of days.  He was here for his cousins wedding and a little vacation with us.  It is so good to see how he has changed from a young boy that was never still to a young independent adult.  I remember all the work and the stress he made me go throughout his uprising days! Yep! It was hard! Carlos Ivan was diagnosed with ADHD (Attention-Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder ) a neurobehavioral developmental disorder. It is primarily characterized by "the co-existence of attentional problems and hyperactivity, with each behavior occurring infrequently alone" and symptoms starting before seven years of age. It is a problem with inattentiveness, over-activity, impulsivity, or a combination.

                                                                        

So you can see life was an ordeal for me! Well I say I just didn’t have a life! It was really difficult to deal with that disorder and with all the other problems that came by at the time!  But, God is so good that when Carlos Ivan put his life completely in his hand he started changing.  God has done a wonderful work in my son’s life. 

The same week he turned 18 yrs old I took him to start living his dream at Masters Commission USA, in Phoenix Arizona. A discipleship program at a Church where his life took a great big turn around and since then has been living on his own and moved to Dallas TX with the program and helped out in starting a new church. I have seen his transformation and today after being here in Puerto Rico when he got back at his job he received the good news of a promotion and a raise!

¡Dios es tan bueno que al regresar Iván de sus vacaciones le notificaron que tenía una promoción y un aumento de sueldo y otro aumento en camino!  Yo me lo estoy gozando porque todo esto es parte de una promesa de parte de Dios y de mi jornada de transformación!

I am happy because this is part of God’s promise for me and my family and a great part in my life changing journey!  What the Lord promises He delivers! Even when we think He will not deliver! (Truly I had my doubts this morning) I was having a big conversation with God this morning and the Lord answered me immediately!  

We got to hold on to His promises! It is hard but “He has plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future”! Jer. 29.11

Be blessed!!

BALANCE

Balance-A desirable point between two or more opposite forces.

Harmony- a state in which various parts form a satisfying and harmonious whole and nothing is out of proportion or unduly emphasized at the expense of the rest

Emotional Stability- a state of emotional and mental stability in which somebody is calm and able to make rational decisions and judgments

Today I took yoga class after arriving late to the gym because one of my car’s front wheels was damaged so kind of stressed me so there I was at my yoga class trying to calm down. Studies have shown yoga has many health benefits, including increased flexibility and strength and reduced stress, it is  a mental discipline.  I like it because I feel relaxed and it has helped me improve my flexibility in other routines I do.

Well, while meditating  I just come in contact with the Lord and have my own spiritual journey!  It is so unique to see how people could have different opinions about practicing yoga I just find it to be a great moment for me to be connected with the Lord! How many times you are so busy and don’t take a minute or so to connect with God! Tell me, how many times? I just go to the gym and spend my time in public with the Lord! Cool hu!  Today in my mind I was just thinking that so many stress and moments we just don’t take time for Him. Estar en la presencia de Dios es un momento tan precioso e intimo y en mi clase de yoga tengo esa oportunidad! Brutal! 

Lo espiritual y lo físico tienen que estar en perfecta armonía para poder lidiar con las situaciones diarias de la vida.  

Balance is the key to everything in life.  When you have balance between your body and soul you feel you can do much more than when not balanced.  You have stability. But when you are in balance with God wow more than amazing! Ever since I have been on my journey to lose weight I have taken it to the level of practicing the balance of my body and my soul.  It takes time but the results are amazing! We are God’s temple our body is His and He gave it to us to administrate it! We get lazy and start eating junk food and then we get sick and tired and all it is bad administration so we end up sick and fat or fat and sick it’s the same!  When we get a perfect balance we eat right, sleep right, do exercises, feel great and overall in perfect health, but we just love to mistreat ourselves to get out of the right track.  

I love the Lord and feel it is about time to reclaim His promises and His plans that He always has had for me! The past is gone I gave it to Him! The present is taking place and the future is in His hands!

Necesito balancear mi vida para así estar lista para lo que me espera! Para lo que Dios esta poniendo en mis manos hacer! Es en grande y tengo que estar en “shape” para hacer todo lo que voy a estar haciendo!

Need balance in my life! God has plans for me and I need to be in shape to do all that is required of me!

Look for the perfect balance of the Lord! It is the best investment you can do for yourself!

Be Blessed! Bendecidos!!

"Habit"

“We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence then is not an act, but a habit.” Aristotle

Habits are routines of behavior that are repeated regularly and tend to occur subconsciously, without one being conscious about them. Habitual behavior often goes unnoticed in persons exhibiting it, because a person does not need to engage in self-analysis when undertaking routine tasks. Habituation is an extremely simple form of learning, in which an organism, after a period of exposure to a stimulus, stops responding to that stimulus in varied manners. Habits are sometimes compulsory.

A bad habit is a negative behavior pattern. Common examples include: procrastination, fidgeting, overspending, and overeating.

This morning I changed one of my routine I was reading a book by John C. Maxwell “Put Your Dream to the Test”. It has been life changing to me to get hold of the book and the handbook. Today it was about Habits he writes “psychologist estimate that up to 90 percent of people’s behavior is habitual”.  We do the same over and over and truly a lot of our habits are bad habits.  

¡Somos criaturas de hábitos! ¡Hacemos lo mismo una y otra vez! ¡La mayoría son malos hábitos!

We can change those bad habits!  Even small changes con make a difference in our lives.  I am changing slowly but constant my calorie intake, this has been difficult because I love to eat! I love junk food and that is truly a bad habit! Doing more exercises, no TV (well had to I do not have a TV right now!) so in a way it has helped me.  Got to read the Bible in 90 days and it has been very fulfilling!

The experts say it take from 21 to 30 days to change a bad habit for a good and productive one. They even make some recommendations like: Become aware of your bad habit, You have to want to change, Commitment, Consistent action, Perseverance, Keep it simple.  These are the experts talking and I just add Trust the Lord! Yes! This has been the key for me! Trust the Lord! When I am in my spinning class that really is tough and I feel like I am going to give up; I trust in the Lord! I close my eyes and call upon His promises and repeat to myself “metamorphosis!” and take another breath and wow!  I can finish my routine!

¡Se puede romper con los malos hábitos! ¡Sigue cambiando para bien!  ¡Sobre todo confía en el Señor! ¡El tiene grandes planes para ti y para mi!!!!

You can change your bad habits! Keep on changing for your good! Trust in the Lord! He has great plans for you an me!

Bendecidos! Be Blessed!!

Pss. Lost 1 pound this week! Yay for me!! 

"Plateau"

Plateau-A period or state of little or no growth or decline: to reach a plateau in one's career.

Diet Plateau: This is a stage when you are likely to feel the weight no longer coming off. This is termed as reaching or hitting a plateau. A stage when you are neither losing nor gaining weight. In all probability, it is not an uncommon occurrence. It is a very common occurrence prone to happen at some point or other with almost everyone who is on a diet.

Definitely that is how I am felling in this stage of my life changing steps on a diet plateau.  I have been counting my total calories intake on a daily basis, doing tons of exercises, weight training, spinning even 30 minutes of jogging.  I have lost 14 pounds but been in that number for more than 2 weeks well I’m not going to stop, I will not give up!  

Life plateau-a stage when you feel you are not achieving anything in your life when you feel you just got hit by a big wall in front of you!  You are neither feeling accomplished or getting anywhere in life. Many times we wake up and ask ourselves: What am I doing here? What about my dreams? My life?...well dare to tell you Life Plateau! Definitely I have been here! Where am I going? Where is my life heading?  I will not give up! I will not stop!

God plateau-when you don’t feel His presence, can’t hear anything coming from God. We scream God you forgot me! Where are you? Where are your promises? Definitely been in this plateau!

But in the mist of all these plateaus I got great news even for me!! It is not a permanent phenomenon! But, a temporary situation!  Isn’t that great news!! All I have to do is make some changes some adjustments! Change routine, calories intake, eat differently, etc. Make life changes! Read more, exercise, work in something you are passion about, change friends, do a makeover all positive things you can imagine! Take time to pray alone and in a quiet room, listen yes shut up and listen to God! Read the Bible, read inspirational books, etc. Just do some changes in al the aspects of your life and little by little you will see how those changes will help you succeed towards obtaining your goal!

So looks like I have to keep on working on my workout and never give up on the plans that the Lord has for me! Don’t you give up on the plans the Lord has for you!

No te des nunca por vencida en los planes que Dios tiene para ti!

Blessings!

met·a·mor·pho·sis

met·a·mor·pho·sis

1. Biology. A profound change in form from one stage to the next in the life history of an organism, as from the caterpillar to the pupa and from the pupa to the adult butterfly.
2. Any complete change in appearance, character, circumstances, etc.

A change in appearance, character and circumstances is what I am working on with God as my guide! These days have been of hard work for me because I am trying to loose weight and it has not been an easy task. God promised a complete change in my life a transformation and I believe it has to be in every aspect of my life.

For a women to feel complete it has to be in a balance physical, financial and spiritually way. When all these aspects are fulfilled all the rest flows well at least that is how I truly feel. I need to be in a good physical state of mind in a better health than I am at this moment to keep working on the other aspects of my life changing journey!

Necesito estar en perfecta armonía tanto físicamente, espiritualmente y financiera-mente. Para eso estoy trabajando duro para poder rebajar y completar mi transformación total. Se empieza con un paso a la vez luego se sigue el proceso de cambio.

Dios siempre tiene los mejores pensamientos para nuestras vidas esta en nosotras creerle a El y continuar!

God always has great plans for us, all we need to do is believe in Him and continue. So thus does my journey begin!!

Blessings!!

The first day!

Blessings!

Today I finally started my blog! I am supposed to write my thoughts!

What can I say for now it's is quiet difficult at the moment but I know everything will flow!

God has given me a dream in full action at this stage of my life! I have been retarding my life and seen so many people pass by but I know this is my moment!

Jeremiah 29:11 (NIV) For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future".

God always has great plans for us we just choose the wrong path and the wrong crowd to be with!

So my first day well thank God for his love and his promises to prosper me and each one of you in everything!

Be blessed!